It was one of those springs where it felt especially cold in the morning, but, reasonably warm at night. I remember the drastic temperature change one morning after sleeping in my car. The sharpness of the freezing dawn grabbed my face tight and pierced deep into my skin half numbing me, half stabbing me. I … Continue reading Zero
Entrenched
Growing up I often wished I had a tribe. I was alone a lot as a kid and was raised by television. At the time, I deeply wished I had the kind of family who would teach me life skills like: how to be financially independent, coping skills, that I am loved no matter what, … Continue reading Entrenched
Efflorescence
I think it was when I started looking at the whole story, not just my story, that the power inside me changed. Before then, I had been heavy with a thick pain that draped over me and seeped inside me, half protecting me, half torturing me. At night I'd cry myself to sleep and then … Continue reading Efflorescence
Wretched Roots
I've come to believe I live in two separate worlds. The first is one of my general life. It's here that I go to work, shop, eat and go to the gym. This world values you based on how attractive you are, your achievements, your level of education, and your level of wealth. It is … Continue reading Wretched Roots
Reinvention
I have been broken many times in my life. I have felt the heavy breath of death, the consistent ache of loneliness and the echo of insignificance. I assure you, nothing in life hits you harder than vulnerability. When the physical beauty of you is gone and the body you once thought was strong and … Continue reading Reinvention
The Feeling of Empowerment
Moving forward from bad past experiences, sucks. It plagues you and at times, it can define you. I personally hate being weak. In fact, I would actively fight any kind of deep emotion as frequently as I could get away with it. If I got angry, I'd leave the situation to deal with it alone, … Continue reading The Feeling of Empowerment